The feeling of chin touching the concrete floor is cold.
Chen Yu gritted his teeth and endured severe pain. She was prone on the ground, and a "dragon whip" was drawn to her back.
In the chaos, everyone around us was laughing. The male students were in a circle, and the male instructors stood in a row. The person who hit her was Wu Junbao, the "mountain leader" of Yuzhang Academy, who also smiled happily.
She woke up with a start and sweated her clothes. This is the fifth year that Chen Yu left Yuzhang Academy, and she is still suffering from a nightmare.
Yuzhang Academy is a private non-academic education and training institution, located in Wancun Village, Qingshan Lake District, Nanchang, Jiangxi. "Helping people with youth crisis to achieve excellent life", Yuzhang Academy put forward such a goal in the agreement signed with parents. In 2017, after being exposed to corporal punishment and other problems, the college applied for suspension.
Although the door was closed, the students were not saved. They believe that this school, which claims to be transforming machines, has pushed some young people who originally needed help to another invisible track. After leaving the academy, some people got rid of the shadows, some people stayed away from their families and schools, some people fell into depression, became numb, and even tried to commit suicide or commit crimes.
Among them, a student reported illegal detention in the school in 2017 and the police filed a case. Later, due to insufficient evidence, the prosecution retired the investigation. On November 14th this year, a new informant was added to the case, and the Qingshan Lake Branch of Nanchang Public Security Bureau filed the case again.
On November 14th, the student received the receipt of the case after reporting the case. Except for special marks, the pictures in this article are all provided by the respondents.
Chen Yu knows that Wu Junbao didn’t hit her, and there are not only boys in the academy, but she often feels that dreams seem more real than reality. The demons are still there. In reality, she gave up her job and searched the evidence behind her family’s back every day, hoping to promote the progress of the case.
For her, this is a self-help.
Walk out of the ruins
On a hot day in June 2015, Chen Yu left Yuzhang Academy, which she wanted to escape from countless times.
To meet her is a long time no see parents, familiar, and a little strange. A woman, with short hair cut and dark glasses, and a man, who looks old, has white hair coming out one after another. Chen Yu stood at the gate of the academy and said nothing.
This year, she was 15 years old, small and thin, with thick black long hair.
In March 2014, in order to avoid the endless campus violence, she took the initiative to apply to enter Yuzhang Academy, which claimed to focus on Chinese studies education and self-cultivation education, and "escaped" from Zhejiang to Jiangxi.
However, she ran head-on into another kind of violence — — Many students said that boys and girls would be beaten if they talked or moved in class; Students report, inform against and bully each other; If you mention corporal punishment in school when talking to your parents, you will be cut off immediately; The head is covered with dense barbed wire. Chen Yu once fell off a ceramic cup and cut himself with fragments, bleeding, and then he waited for 20 "dragon whip", which is a slender stick. The students said it was a steel bar wrapped in black paint, but the school said it was made of bamboo. A student who entered Yuzhang College in 2014 witnessed her being beaten. "At that time, female students lined up and saw Chen Yu being beaten in a chair. After the beating, she was taken away by the students."
Really want to leave there, Chen Yu was stunned. The two men led her to an unlicensed brown SUV and froze her. "The car you borrowed?" She finally spoke. This is not the original car at home, and Chen Yu shrank back.
"No, are you two spies who look like my parents?" Chen Yu muttered to himself and got on the bus with suspicion.
By inquiring about the landmark buildings next to her home, she finally confirmed that "they" were her parents.
The car got on the expressway, and left Jiangxi after a few hours, and the three lanes gradually widened into four lanes. When she saw the name of her hometown on the road sign, she knew that she had really gone home, and tears suddenly flowed out.
She still remembers that feeling. "It seems that after staying in the ruins for a long time, the sky is finally a little brighter."
At home, the bed is novel, and it is no longer a bunk bed with a musty military quilt. The shower head is also fun. The Yuzhang Academy is a water pipe with at most half a mineral water bottle with a hole. The front door of the house has changed a lot. She doesn’t know the updated bus route, and it’s interesting to see the city bicycles parked by the roadside. She thought foolishly, "Humans are really smart now."
This remote experience also appeared in Zhu Ning.
Finally, she walked out of the scarlet gate of Yuzhang Academy, the cars on the road, the noisy sounds and the tall buildings, and she felt dizzy and empty.
In November 2014, when she was 18 years old, she entered Yuzhang Academy for the first time. Six months after she came out, she "re-entered the palace" and left before Yuzhang Academy closed in November 2017.
When he got home, Zhu Ning mentioned the corporal punishment and detention in Yuzhang Academy with his parents. "How is it possible?" Parents answered. I also met my mother in the academy. She quietly showed her the wound that was swollen by the ruler at the pulse. Her mother only threw two words: "What a suck." After coming out, I told my good friend, and the other person replied with a joke: "Did you go to ancient times?"
In response to the corporal punishment injury proposed by the students, Wu Junbao told the The Paper reporter, "It really hurts the students." However, he said that the punishment operation for students in that year was still measured. "There has never been a minor injury or serious injury caused by a ruler pointer."
For several months, Chen Yu once suspected that the days in Yuzhang Academy were "normal life". Four years later, she was sitting in a crowded coffee shop, wearing a cowboy coat and short hair. She talked about the moment when she just left Yuzhang Academy and laughed strangely.
Before high school started, she didn’t go out, trying to find that familiar feeling: searching Jiangxi Satellite TV on TV; Wear the clothes of Yuzhang Academy, with a twisted sky-blue coat and a gray-black dress; Looking through the diary written in the academy, covered with a textbook, parents thought she had "learned".
Read "Notes on Self-cultivation in Yuzhang Academy" in high school class.
She doesn’t talk to her family, and the room door locks if it can. Every night at dinner, when her parents finish eating, she sits at the table alone, first reciting Thanksgiving Dinner — — Pre-meal ceremony stipulated in Yuzhang Academy. She is also afraid that her parents will ask questions. "It’s not good to talk about it, and I’m tired after talking about it."
wound
Chen Yu began to lose sleep all night.
When I close my eyes, it’s all about the dream of Yuzhang Academy. I sleep paralysis during the day, so I can’t wake up.
When she went to high school in September, her parents arranged a health school for her to pick up and drop off from school. Chen Yu is not in contact with the outside world, and there is a line between home and school. I seldom talk to my classmates, curled up like a hedgehog, and only when someone called her to have dinner together did I "mm-hmm".
She was so tired that she fell asleep in class and woke up shouting for help. She had to let her classmates watch her at any time.
In my dream, sometimes the academy is haunted, and sometimes there are endless punishments. In a trance, a teacher she retaliated against slept in her room, face down, jumped in front of her, and a pool of blood was scattered on the ground. Chen Yu woke up, added the teacher WeChat, and apologized for more than a month.
Later, Chen Yu talked with people, listened to snoring, listened to songs and talked, so that he could fall asleep slowly.
After coming out of Yuzhang, her parents took her to visit relatives and praised the "traditional culture school" for changing her into a lady. She used to be lively, like a little boy, and she always had to go back to her hometown. She didn’t excuse herself, sat quietly watching TV, thinking, "You know something.".
Only she knows that her real self is about to explode. After his parents went to work, Chen Yu secretly turned on the computer, scolded in the post bar of Yuzhang Academy, and sprayed anonymously in the QQ group with "Shanchang" Wu Junbao and principal Ren Weiqiang. "No one can be trusted. I will scold them by myself."
Thinking in my head has never stopped, which is the sequela of living in the academy. In the past, there were countless things that Chen Yu had to think about every day, so small that she made a fuss when eating, and she didn’t finish eating. She began to ponder the A plan, B plan and C plan explained to the teacher to avoid being beaten. As big as how to prevent students and teachers, for a time, she released a fake news to people around her every day to test whether they would tell on them.
Diary of students in Yuzhang Academy.
Now bored at home, Chen Yu suddenly doesn’t know what to think. Walking on the road one day, she faced the zebra crossing in front of her, unable to figure out whether to step on the white line or the black line, and had a big fight with her parents. At the end of the quarrel, she couldn’t stand herself and cried helplessly on the road.
Seven days a week, she spent four days studying how to die. Once standing on the roof, she thought about it all. The wind poured into his clothes, and Chen Yu was afraid of heights, but at that moment, it seemed even more frightening to live. "I never know what I am."
My mother tried hard to persuade her, and tears streamed down her face. Seeing her crying, she relented and went home with her. At that time, she didn’t know that she had symptoms of depression and mania.
During the manic episode, Chen Yu quarreled with her ex-boyfriend and removed all the doors of the ladies’ room in the mall. Her boyfriend couldn’t hold her back and called her parents. She collapsed and knelt down and cried, "Why did you call them here … …” Saying things that no one can understand.
She can’t explain what’s wrong with herself. I guess it may have something to do with putting up with bullying for too long. Many students mentioned that in Yuzhang Academy, after being beaten with a ruler and a dragon whip, they had to bow and say "thank you for your teaching". Chen Yu said that she never resisted.
repeat the performance
For some students, what they are more afraid of is being sent to Yuzhang again after leaving.
Zhu Ning had a hunch.
After leaving the academy, her parents asked her to report everywhere. She didn’t go home at night, and uninterrupted messages and phone calls flooded into her and her friends’ mobile phones. Mother will block the door and block her from going out with her body.
Arguing constantly. After another serious and fruitless argument, my mother grabbed Zhu Ning’s mobile phone. She aimed at a pair of scissors on the coffee table in the living room, took it down and went back to the room, locked the door and rushed to the balcony. Hesitated for a few seconds, cut off the blue-purple blood vessel and blood came out.
After opening the door, her father got scared and returned her mobile phone. She ran out of the house and stayed in a bar with friends for one night.
After that day, Zhu Ning heard that her mother had already arranged for Yu Zhang’s people to come to catch her.
Not long after, one night in April, 2016, my father cooked a big table with fish and crabs that Zhu Ning loved. She was vaguely uneasy. Her mother had seen her lose weight before, asked her if she was taking drugs, and even counted her life, saying that she must have suffered in the past two years.
As expected. On this day, her father watched her get on the van to Yuzhang.
Zhu Ning was sad and asked, "Dad, why did you lie to me?" Once, her parents promised not to send her to school again.
Father’s eyes are red. Three instructors put her in the car and handcuffed her. She couldn’t get free. Everything repeats itself: locked in a closed "little dark room" and sitting on a small mat, she is surrounded by despair and has no sleep at night.
As for the handcuffs used in arresting people, Zhou Wenliang and Tian Feng, who used to be instructors in Yuzhang Academy, confirmed that instructors usually go with handcuffs when arresting people, "to make children think we are policemen". The "little black room" is the source of students’ nightmares. Many students said that everyone must be locked in the "little black room" for 7 days before entering the school. In this regard, Wu Junbao said in an interview with The Paper that detaining students is Morita therapy for education and correction.
Students identify the location of the original "little black house".
Coming out of Yuzhang for the second time, Zhu Ning will be nervous when he hears his mother answering the phone and calling his father. He will look twice at the license plate in Jiangxi, Lu Yu, and he is often depressed and extremely sensitive to the surrounding sounds.
A year later, in my mother’s shop, my grandmother cried and said to her, "Hurry up." Zhu Ning knew what was going to happen. She didn’t run away, but went home. Also in the dark, she was also in a minivan. She was sent to Zhihe Education Special Training School in Changsha, Hunan Province, and accepted paramilitary management. She left in August this year.
Zhu Ning said that from then on, she could no longer trust her parents. No matter what they did, it seemed as if the two generations were separated by the sea and could not cross the shore.
"whatever"
Zhang Chen, then 17, faced a similar situation to Zhu Ning. After Yu Zhang came out in 2015, she hardly communicated with her parents. The difference is that she gradually became numb to everything.
When I was a child, I was at home, my father cheated, and my parents quarreled. She is doing her homework in the room and can hear clearly — — My father was righteous and my mother didn’t say a word. After the father scolded, the mother would enter Zhang Chen’s room and ask, "Why did you write your homework so slowly today?"
Zhang Chen said that apart from studying, her parents seldom asked her about other feelings. During the summer vacation of primary school, she was locked at home to learn English, play the piano and do her homework every day, two hours in the morning, three hours in the afternoon and three hours in the evening. She began to run away from home and even broke things. For a while, no glass products were put at home.
After Yu Zhang, she could not forgive her parents and built a defensive fortress indifferently.
Zhang Chen recalled that it was at that time that she completely "stepped into the society". At the age of the second grade, she didn’t go to school or go home. She stayed in the shaking room every day and was addicted to cough water. When there is no money, I steal my mother’s jewelry and sell it.
Zhang Chen has long been accustomed to "stealing". Before in the academy, she sneaked into the kitchen with her classmates to steal wine. I can also come out because I stole the instructor’s mobile phone and sent messages to my parents, added a sentence "Don’t reply when I see it" and then deleted it immediately.
After entering Yuzhang Academy, she got used to the rules inside. "Either you bully others or others bully you." In the bedroom, she once stripped a girl naked with several students, and played with her hands and feet on the iron frame bed.
Zhang Chen didn’t go home, and his mother chose to lock him up. Zhang Chen let them lock the room, and then knocked loose the lock core with a hammer and a kitchen knife to escape from the house. Sometimes he quietly took his mother’s key and matched it. "I have my own method."
Zhang Chen hates the feeling of being controlled. When she entered the "little black room" of Yuzhang Academy, she removed the air conditioner and curtains, and was dragged out by several instructors. She kept beating and cursing, and finally fell to the ground by the instructor, and her chin was bleeding and she couldn’t move. Chen Yu remembers that at that time, in front of the Confucius statue, "First, four instructors pressed Zhang Chen to the ground, and later Wu Junbao personally hit him."
One afternoon after leaving the college, she told her mother that she would go to the movies with her friends. "Just stay at home and don’t go anywhere." Her mother looked cold and walked outside with the key. Zhang Chen went to grab it, and his mother picked at it with her nails, but she didn’t grab it.
Zhang Chen raised a kitchen knife — — "You give it to me." She didn’t remember her mother’s expression at that time, as if she had stepped aside. Zhang Chen got the key, threw a kitchen knife, opened the door and rushed out.
Soon after, she was sent to Changsha Jielong Special Training School and stayed for 8 months. When she went to Changsha, she didn’t struggle and "didn’t care" about anything. In her opinion, it is even worse than Yuzhang Academy. "There are no rules, it depends on the instructor’s mood." In a word, the instructor may take shit on the students’ faces. "They will also take pictures."
Yuzhang Academy taught her to look at people and know how to live a little more comfortably on her own. In the new school, she got on well with the instructor and didn’t want to run, so she picked up the instructor’s cup, poured water, ground it for a while, and had a legitimate reason to sit next to it.
After leaving, Zhang Chen went back to her hometown to take the senior high school entrance examination, intending to go to an international school in other places, but after a quarrel with her parents, her mother refused to give her 30 yuan, and she overturned their arrangement.
In 2017, her fall in love was opposed by her father, who packed her two suitcases and told her to get out of the house.
Zhang Chen and her boyfriend have been wandering outside for several months, and the money soon ran out. Her boyfriend started to pull the door and took someone else’s computer and camera to sell, while she and her friends watched. Three months later, she was detained in a detention center for theft, involving 30,000 yuan, which was implemented for one year and suspended for two years.
"It didn’t mean anything at that time. Anyway, it was like this. Sometimes I took drugs, and my brain was not normal." Zhang Chen talked about those days in a light tone.
Dressed in black, she mentioned her parents and took a long smoke. When I came out of the detention center, my parents quarreled and divorced, and my mother moved back to her hometown. She lives alone in another house and works in her father’s company. She often feels bored for no reason, and always has someone to stay with her.
She remembers that the only remaining feeling of home was living with her boyfriend, mother and two golden retrievers before going to jail, and her boyfriend became a buffer between her and her mother. When two people come home, their mother will exchange shoes for her, play cards together in the evening, and make fried pork with potatoes and tomato and egg soup at noon. "Although it tastes terrible, it feels quite good."
Mother came home on National Day this year, and Zhang Chen was watching TV. Mother sat beside her and didn’t stop her from smoking for the first time. "I recently read a report about Yuzhang Academy," my mother whispered. "I feel quite sorry to send you in. I felt that you and I were noisy before, but we could still be together. You used to be sunny, affectionate and energetic, but now you are a different person, especially realistic, and you turn your face and deny people. "
Zhang Chen looked at her and never answered. "What’s for lunch today?" She changed the subject.
Reveal one’s heart
On October 26th, 2017, Zhihu author Wen Yan published an article "How many Yang Yongxin are there in China? ",exposing Yuzhang Academy’s imprisonment and corporal punishment of students by means of Chinese studies, which aroused public concern. Subsequently, the injured students and netizens set up a volunteer group to establish a core rights protection group, with hundreds of messages rolling every day.
Tender posted on Zhihu. Gentle Weibo screenshot
"I want to join, too." Seeing the exposure, this is the first thought that Chen Yu flashed.
Before that, she did research and practice, day after day.
After joining the volunteer group, she saw hope, and the whole person got excited and pulled dozens of students into the group at once. I am interviewed by reporters every day, and my mobile phone has never stopped charging. I have opened the application of WeChat friends, and every message that adds her is answered one by one.
In order not to let her parents find out, she ran to the attic to make a phone call, and when she was tired, she sat on the toilet in the attic toilet. She searched every corner of the house for evidence, and then quietly stuffed it under the drawer of the old bed after using it.
On November 4th, Chen Yu published the first self-report on her experience in Yuzhang in Weibo. She spent a night writing it, and her words were calm, but she shook as she wrote, and fell down on the bed after writing. Outside the window, the skylight had brightened.
Before the exposure, she couldn’t relax, so she had to play mobile games and open a live broadcast room. Many people accompanied her to watch and chat, and she was comfortable.
On this day, she sat on the sofa in the living room with her mobile phone. Mother glanced at her. She had repeatedly reminded Chen Yu to play with her mobile phone less. "Now she is beginning to die again. Do you believe I will send you to Yuzhang Academy again?"
Hearing this, Chen Yu suddenly couldn’t stand it, and began to point at his mother’s nose and scold her. Her mother froze and looked dumbfounded. Father heard the noise and ran out and slapped her.
She let it all out at once.
"I suppressed for a long time, and I am not afraid to tell you. You only know how to live, but you don’t know how to raise. "
"Do you know where you put me? What have I experienced?"
While screaming, tears kept falling.
She remembered that in Yuzhang Academy, her father was standing downstairs wearing a suit and holding a thermos cup, but the class teacher wouldn’t let her meet her father. She shouted at the window on the fourth floor, but didn’t dare to shout too loudly. The family meeting is only two or three days. If the parents are found to be in private, they will be beaten. If they put her in the boring room, there will be no chance to meet each other.
Later, she hit her head against the iron railing, bleeding profusely, and went to the class teacher’s room, and "Kuang" trampled her bed board off.
Now, parents are in sight, but Chen Yu feels that the distance between them is getting farther and farther.
"Daughter, it’s not like this." Mother also cried. After listening to her, her parents, who have always been inarticulate, sat down beside her. There was only a small light in the living room. In the gloom, my parents opened their hearts for the first time and said many things that they had never said before.
Finally, Chen Yu wiped her tears. "I really can’t stand it. Please take me to see a doctor."
She was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. For two years, she didn’t believe that she was sick, and thought that there was no need for treatment. After pouring out her heart knot for many years, she began to be hospitalized and take medicine.
Chen Yu was diagnosed as bipolar disorder.
For her, this is also the beginning of some kind of reconciliation. Parents are becoming "cute" gradually. She heard from her mother that her father was hiding in the quilt in the middle of the night, not watching TV, and secretly crying. Chen Yu went to his room to change the sheets, and found that there was a card under the sheets that she gave to her father when she was a child. It said, "Dad, I love you." There were three little people in the middle, and two adults were holding a little person.
just believe in love
Chen Yu once thought that the light was coming.
On November 8, 2017, after a lot of media exposure and public concern, Yuzhang Academy took the initiative to apply for closure. Before the suspension, the Qingshan Lake District in Nanchang issued an official notice saying that the school did have behaviors and systems such as penalty station, playing ruler and beating bamboo to quit whipping. On December 7, the police filed a case against the victim students for investigation.
Chen Yu was excited when she heard that Yuzhang Academy was closed, but she felt that it was not over yet. During that time, she lived in the hospital, groggy, taking sedatives and sleeping pills every day, and thinking about Yuzhang Academy in her mind. She wanted to participate in the report and provide evidence and clues, but she was still underage.
2018 has become a harbinger. After her 18th birthday, she wants to do something on her own.
A few months later, the procuratorate of Qingshan Lake District in Nanchang decided not to arrest Wu Junbao on the grounds of "insufficient evidence", and the case was returned for supplementary investigation. The core rights protection group is slowly dying, and volunteers are also losing. Only nearly five people are still insisting on the investigation.
Without progress, Chen Yu started a new life, working as a clerk in a coffee shop, selling cards in a photo studio and reporting to a driving school. Finally, I opened a real estate agency, bought a suit, and had cigarettes on my body at any time. I divided them up when I saw people. I entertained until 3 am every day and went back to the store to sleep.
At work, the traces left by Yuzhang Academy are still there, and she will keep an eye on everything. When someone comes to cooperate with her, she will repeatedly think, "Why should I cooperate with you? What benefits can you give him? Why doesn’t he cooperate with others and cooperate with you? "
But the case of Yuzhang Academy is still a thorn in her heart. When she is in charge of the store, she will ask Luo Wei, the student who reported the case, about the latest progress, and there is no result. She sends Weibo from time to time to update the content related to Yuzhang Academy, and no one cares. Chatting in the core group is at a loss.
In the summer of 2018, after saving enough money, Chen Yu couldn’t help but go to Nanchang with the report materials. Back in front of the gate of Yuzhang Academy, the four buildings of the Women’s Department were painted with new paint and turned into gray bricks, but those memories were still clear one by one, and she couldn’t help crying.
She didn’t go to the public security bureau, but met some local students from Yuzhang College in Nanchang. Chen Yu didn’t mention the report, but beat about the bush, trying to sound out everyone’s thoughts. When we met, everyone laughed and talked about what they had been happy in the academy before, and no one decided to be accountable like her.
Chen Yu was shaken, and the two-way emotional disorder made her constantly deny herself in the past. She deleted the former Weibo, returned to Zhejiang, hid the report materials all over the house again, and fell into depression again.
After returning, she still spent a lot of time paying attention to the case of Yuzhang Academy. She didn’t get a suite for several months, and she came to the client and simply introduced it to the opposite agent.
In July this year, Chen Yu learned that the volunteer team had restarted the investigation. Volunteer Zi Mu was harassed and intimidated by telephone calls, text messages and other forms last year. He was suspected of being retaliated by the head of Yuzhang Academy, and Zi Mu suffered from depression. In May 2018, he was rescued after drinking a lot of pills.
Wu Junbao denied that he had retaliated. He admitted that he had failed in running a school and felt guilty. "Since then, he has remained anonymous and cultivated his heart for the rest of his life."
Chen Yu once again ignited "fighting spirit." In September, she and another volunteer, Lu Yinggang, visited the victims on the spot, hoping to find more people to participate in the report and provide evidence. They called this effort "the last try".
what course to follow
However, few students are willing to report the case, many have given up, and others are still indulging in greater difficulties.
Lu Yinggang, a volunteer, found that 70%-80% of the students he contacted who walked out of Yuzhang Academy had psychological barriers such as mania, depression and anxiety. "There, the dark side of society was forced into their eyes, which led them to think that others were children’s tricks."
Many students’ families are already scarred, and after leaving the academy, they are even more determined to stay away from their parents and schools, and they are at a loss when they are adults.
During the visit, some people will directly deny that they have been to Yuzhang Academy, even if they face the name on the certificate of Yuzhang Academy, "The same name is not allowed." Some people listened to his purpose, "No, it didn’t hurt me", talked about some content, and said, "Look, I can tell you, it didn’t hurt me."
Some people find it difficult to trust others and often ask him, "Why on earth did you help me?" When a boy sees him sitting next to him, he will suddenly shrink aside; When eating together, I heard a Nanchang accent at the next table, and my eyes stared over there, and the whole person became alert.
When telling the past experience again, some students suddenly became fierce, striking the table and yelling, "I just sent me to a place like this because of my poor grades?" I earn more on Taobao than you do. What qualifications do you have to do this to me? ！” When it comes to parents, people often refer to "that person", "them" and "you".
Lu Yinggang said that after leaving Yuzhang College, many students have embarked on the road of crime, such as prostitution and drug abuse.
They lack a social support system, and no one intervenes when there are crises such as suicide and crime. This often makes volunteers feel powerless. "Can one person manage so many people?" Liu Yinggang smiled bitterly.
Si Jia, then 15 years old, left home after leaving the academy in 2015, and now she is migrating in various cities. In the academy, she secretly decided: "After going out, she must be financially independent and will not let her parents send herself in again."
After staying at home for three months, she didn’t want to play with her parents, packed her bags, and came to Nanchang by train alone to see what this place that had been trapped for half a year looked like. At the gate of Yuzhang Academy, watching the students in class, she was a little gloating, "finally relieved", and with the determination of masochism, she wanted to remember those pains.
Over the years, Sijia has never spent his parents’ money. Part of the money she earned was paid for plastic surgery, and she couldn’t forget the verbal violence she endured in Yuzhang — — Because some girls were found to be in love, the teacher gathered everyone together to lecture, with a sarcastic tone: "You are young, want to marry and want to fall in love, and you don’t look at yourself one by one"; She is the principal of the students, who is responsible for approving the students’ rulers. The students aim at her and laugh at her for being ugly and like a toad.
Before going out, she needs exaggerated makeup, new clothes, Cosmetic Contact Lenses, wig and earrings, and she will feel safe when she is fully armed. She didn’t dare to look in the mirror, and the frustration of "nothing looks good" surged up every day.
Since 2017, Sijia has moved a knife every other month. Now, except for her mouth, she has had cosmetic surgery on her whole face, but she is still not satisfied with her appearance.
Affection, love and friendship are all indifferent to her. "I don’t need or want to believe in these things."
not yet completed
When he came to Nanchang to report the case again, Chen Yu cancelled the store, signed an organ donation agreement without telling his parents and boyfriend, and held a mortal heart to "fight against Wu Junbao". She just couldn’t resist her friend’s persuasion, so she gave up reporting the case again.
Trying to move forward, she was still caught in the past.
In October this year, Gentle posted again, telling the experience of volunteers being threatened. Yuzhang Academy once again entered the public eye, and the popularity of the article was no longer the same. Chen Yu began to brush "Please pay attention to the Yuzhang Academy incident" under the headlines, Weibo V and Tik Tok popularity again, and reposted his self-report on Weibo. Some of the comments criticized and questioned students or parents, and she explained them one by one.
I don’t know why, my parents and my grandmother’s relatives began to study traditional culture. "Children and grandchildren are learning this set and spending money to listen to the video class" To Conscience "." She felt rejected, and her authoritative elders said, "Traditional culture is good, it can change the relationship between people, family relations and people’s lives."
Chen Yu felt funny. "I don’t know if it’s good if I can’t persuade. Anyway, it’s good if I don’t hit people."
Afraid of forgetting, Chen Yu will look at the articles she wrote before, turn over the notes passed in the library and the records of being beaten in the college that she wrote in the "Lectures on Self-cultivation in Yuzhang Academy" in class.
Now every night, Chen Yu coaxes her boyfriend to sleep, hiding in the dark, looking for evidence and clues, reading private letters, sending Weibo, and choosing words carefully. I can’t hold on. I didn’t go to sleep until seven or eight in the morning. She stopped taking medicine, and sometimes she fell into endless depression and stayed in bed for several days without eating or drinking water.
For this matter, her boyfriend and she quarreled a lot. "Don’t let you do, hurt you? Letting you do it may be harmful to you. " Chen Yu turned away without listening or saying anything.
On October 29th, the staff of the Political Department of Nanchang Procuratorate introduced to The Paper that two instructors were suspected of illegal detention. At present, Nanchang Procuratorate is checking the case, and the results will be announced to the public.
On November 14th, a new informant was added to the illegal detention case, and the case was filed for the second time in Qingshan Lake Branch of Nanchang Public Security Bureau. This time, Chen Yu sent a report.
Nowadays, she and her parents don’t see each other often, but they can care about each other. She will say to her mother, "Be good, mommy, and I will be good."
However, like most students, she still doesn’t know how much her parents know about the real situation of Yuzhang Academy. For the cracks and obsession that can’t disappear in his heart, Chen Yu didn’t tell his parents, "I don’t want to disappoint them, and it’s not easy for them to make money." She will remember that when she was a child, her family was poor, her parents came out of the factory to earn money by doing business, and she was shy, so she was raised in her grandmother’s house.
One winter night in childhood, she got out of bed at 3 am and had a premonition that her mother would come to see her. Sure enough, her mother came on a tricycle, but her grandmother preferred sons to daughters and didn’t like the daughter-in-law who gave birth to a daughter. "Don’t bother the child to sleep and hurry." She was lying at the door of the room, saying nothing and not crying.
She sometimes thinks that the first half of her life, from campus violence and Yuzhang Academy, has gone off the rails. Before that, she was a little girl who wore a ponytail, played with Moore Manor, took 10 pieces of lunch money from her mother, and became a QQ member and was ecstatic.
Now, she seems to have become vicissitudes, and will say, "There are too many dark corners where the sun can’t shine."
In Weibo’s private letters, many people sent encouraging messages to Chen Yu or asked her for help. Some people fled from other online schools, trying to expose them, while others complained about the troubles in their youth. A boy with gender cognitive impairment always coughed up blood and lived for 15 years at most. They all told her:
"Come on, live well."
She wants to live, wait for an answer, and then really come out of Yuzhang Academy. (Reporter Huang Yujie)
Yuzhang Academy is now located in a boarding art school.
(The characters Chen Yu, Zhu Ning, Zhang Chen and Si Jia are pseudonyms, and The Paper reporter Zhu Yuanxiang also contributed to this article.)
